My God stuff thinkings

My gorgeous 3 and a half year old has heard about New Zealand and is continuously asking to go there. How do you explain to a three year old that we are already in New Zealand?  I pointed out the map of our country on the wall and showed him where we live on it, but the argument went something like this: “I wanna go to Nu Zeewand.”  

“We are in New Zealand, Ryan.”

“No. I wanna go to Nu Zeewand, now. Not home.”

“Our home is part of New Zealand. It is a large piece of land with lots of small towns and cities.”

“But I can’t see it. I wannu see Nu Zeewand. Can you take me? Please?”

Sigh. “I’ll take you when you are bigger, ok?”

Could this be like the kingdom of heaven? Are we like little kids pleading God for a glimpse of His mysteries, or a show of His power in our lives, when all the time we have access to everything He has created in the spiritual realm? Do we only need to grow up? To learn to chew the meat and daily bread which is all around us, instead of being spoon-fed processed food from our favorite flavored dishes?

I think God has sighed at me many times in the past, from listening to my childish pleadings, and has surely resorted each time to saying, “Kylie, I will take you there when you grow up a little more.”  

 Until we gain the knowledge that builds our faith, then we are like kids in our ability to grasp the concepts of God. My BIG QUESTION TODAY is, ‘If it was only a matter of getting our head around a notion (like in math) that then we would be able to live in (or at least tap into) a realm of power and abundance and strength to advertise God’s goodness, then why don’t we drop everything to learn it?’

What stops us from giving up everything, to hold the pearl of great cost in our very own hands? Is it because we are afraid to fall? Are we afraid that we might be disappointed with the prize? Is it from lack of maturity or sight, that we still cling to our own limited reasoning which then defines our lives as selfish, childish and blurred?

Please excuse my introspection today. I just see all around me living examples of how we are to grow up. The trees out the window grow up. God has His plan outlined in the plants, in birds, animals, humans, and mountains themselves.

We are not to remain the same. I keep thinking of all the years I have ahead of me, especially those long drawn out years when the children have all left and the grandchildren are watching us retire. I will never be satisfied to just live in comfort. I want to LIVE! If I can write a book from no training under God’s supervision within a few months, imagine what else He may want for us all in the years to come when experience and knowledge is involved! My entire life is going to be used up on advertising Him, and mostly to learn as much as I can about our world’s God, so His voice is all I hear.

His voice is clearest among the hungry and desperate families, and those enslaved physically or in addictions or mental health problems.  He seems to be screaming at us to wake up those who have fallen to sleep in the highs of the beautiful poppy fields of consumerism. Now I love nice clothes and a large home like the best of them, but there is so much more to life than that. And if it was gone – my happiness would not be.

It is a privilege to have so many years ahead to fight in His soul battle. Who knows what may be achieved within one year of a life. It may be a last year due to illness or age, or the retirement time well due from years of dedicated service, but each should all be used up for the One Purpose. Lasting pleasure cannot be found elsewhere, I promise.  It is just so overwhelming that in 34years a person can have so much gain in God, that it seems mind boggling to think of what exponentially added faith could have in store for the next 34years.

Or, have I missed something? Have I only refused to look tired old reality in the face and bow to my friend fear again? Yes? Or no!!

Latest comments

08.10 | 03:59

Kylie, I would be delighted to have my name as a side character in your next book. I am telling anyone who will listen that they too must read The Book of Told.

08.10 | 03:42

Thank you SOOO much, Carol, for your encouragement! I would love to use your name as a side character in the prequel! Much blessings to you!

08.10 | 02:43

For the first time in many years I have found a book that I didn't want to put down. I wanted to just continue reading to find out where the story was going.

05.10 | 18:11

so so nice