He (God) stunned me just yesterday with recognizing how close He is to us if we believe.
I sat alone and said, “Hi, Jesus.”
In an instant I knew He was listening. Then wham –
He reminded me that He is the same Jesus who the disciples said ‘Hi’ to. A mental bridge built between the two and one moment later another bridge rose high, arching over the Old Testament and beginning before the creation of the world! It is the
same Jesus!
By now I had goosebumps and awe all over my face. It is so strange how we can know this stuff and yet miss a certain glimpse. It seems that at every angle He is showing off His radiance and design. He is so close. We distance
Him through busy distractions and self-preservation feelings. We beg for His presence when it is our minds and choices which get in the way. Be still.
Listening to an interview online afterwards, the speaker
rammed home another point which combed out the last of my recent holdouts from God. The point made was that when we suffer from anxiety and worry, we are being atheists. This might sound a little harsh, but the point is valid. I had been entertaining atheistic
thoughts every time I tried to take control of my life happenings.
The book…
My time…
My family…
Every worry was similar to saying, “There
is no God who can help with this.” Even when I asked, which I did, I would take it back again and not truly believe that there was a God capable and desirous of stepping in. How wrong could a person be!!!!!
He is more
than capable and He can help my unbelief. We can know what He wants. He makes Himself more than clear! He is more precious than anything!!!! I love Him so much.
I have sooooo much to
learn. The Book of Told is my preaching to myself more than anything. It is my grasping the whole and reinforcing the fragments of God in my mind. Jesus. I love you.