My God stuff thinkings


'Who Hasn't Suffered An Addiction?'

"I have an addictive nature. I only felt free to admit this three years ago. Before this, I secretly hid my past from everyone but a select few. I had both eating disorders: anorexia and bulimia. For some years it consumed me as I dealt with some major issues in my young life; life circumstances out of our control lead us into addictions. For me it was sexual abuse, a controlling and abusive relationship as a late teen, and unfair comparisons to other woman from strategic people in my life.

Where I found freedom?

A close supportive person who had the wisdom to say "Most people grow out of this, and you have the personality to as well." This gave me hope. It made me realize that I did not have to die from the turmoil inside. I did not have to starve myself, or throw up for the seventh time that day. I did not have to choose eating as my one area I could control in a spiraling world. I could learn real life coping mechanisms and accept the help offered.

There was freedom.

But the real truth is we all have addictive natures, and I had no need to feel ashamed or alone. The real freedom (the lasting freedom) came from learning what was behind the addiction - the same thing that is behind every addiction, I think.

The biggest addiction we all face is our compulsion to SEEK PEOPLE'S APPROVAL. This might seem minor in the face of the huge list of ‘real’ addictions we face daily: coffee, chocolate, retail therapy, drugs/substances, pain-relief/meds, success, money, fame, work, food, sex, adrenaline, games, Facebook, Instragram(Insecuritygram), 'Likes', people.

What is below the surface of why we need these addictions? Who has made us feel not good enough?

Nobody wants to feel vulnerable.


The desire to be approved of by people - this has been my biggest addiction of all time. Its power to render me useless is stronger than that of past eating disorders/depression/PTSD/anxiety. I battle inwardly with this massive addiction every day.

What I like to think of my future though, is that each time I feel that ‘arrgh’ feeling of wanting gratification, satisfaction, approval, comfort, distraction, or pain-relief, that the feeling is only a masking of my vulnerability. I want to see the word VULNERABLE in my mind every time I feel pulled into the way the world would have me live: 'look at me', 'selfie', 'am I good enough?'

Then I want to remember that I have a reason for living. I am here for a purpose, and I can be passionate about that vision and draw the most complete satisfaction from it.

It seems to me that there is only one desire, one passion, one fire that will not eventually burn us up - one addiction that we are all wired for that leaves us feeling whole. For me as a Christ follower that is God. He is the key to my freedom.

Sistas ramblngs: God gave us brains with the incredible ability to regenerate. He also, in His grace, has allowed Satan the ability to tamper with only 5%. The other 95% is perfect and with a daily purging of toxic thoughts that alter our brain chemistry, and a habit of thanking, praising, and worshipping Him for a small period of time each day, He will renew our minds. It is through our conscious thinking that our subconscious is formed.

Our mind has daily choices.

Our brain chemistry alters our blood chemistry, which in turn affects our health. It takes 21 days for new thoughts to be wired into our brain. 63 days for this to consolidate into our subconscious. How exciting (and freeing) to find that God has wired us to be in a state of thankfullness, praise, and worship to Him, and that we can have our mind changed so simply.

Science says that a toxic thought causes degeneration to our brain cells, leading to mental health problems and physical illnesses.

How simple it is to target a toxic thought and replace it with mind-blowing powerful scripture, thankfullness, praise, and then worship!

Dr Leaf explains that when we acknowledge a thought as toxic, i.e., 'I feel so insecure when my friends do not invite me out', this causes degeneration to our brain cells over time. It also sinks into our subconscious soon enough and becomes the default thought when faced with this situation. This is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy at its God-given best!

We can rewire our own thinking! God has given us a brain that WANTS to think of Him and regenerate.

Dr Leaf explains that when we THANK God, He listens (she gives many versres for this). When we PRAISE God, He is present (many verses here too). Lastly, when we WORSHIP Him (more verses), He acts on our behalf! Can you imagine?!

We are designed to be happy, to live abundantly well and have a renewed and sound mind! We do not have to fall into depression, mental disorders, dementias, if we get rid of toxic thoughts. It was not God who put them there!

This is where our true mind freedom comes from - the Creator of our brains! He is so genius, and I can harldy wait to be part of the millions proving God right.

Dr Caroline Leaf outlines a foolproof way to never suffer with most health issues again! I now have the key to this freedom! Watch it work!!

Oh, and I forgot to mention that Dr Leaf uses this knowledge to help trafficked people restore from their pasts. She is a big supporter of A21 Campaign!!!!

Latest comments

08.10 | 03:59

Kylie, I would be delighted to have my name as a side character in your next book. I am telling anyone who will listen that they too must read The Book of Told.

08.10 | 03:42

Thank you SOOO much, Carol, for your encouragement! I would love to use your name as a side character in the prequel! Much blessings to you!

08.10 | 02:43

For the first time in many years I have found a book that I didn't want to put down. I wanted to just continue reading to find out where the story was going.

05.10 | 18:11

so so nice