My father is very unwell. He has an oncologist appointment tomorrow that will give us the clearer picture. It is hard to come to terms with the empty place that I know will gape within time. He taught me to love Jesus. He showed me the respect and honour
that is due our King even if his view was limited by law. I owe him so much respect. I went on from this scripture-filled base to learn of the freedom and power of true life in the knowledge that the very Spirit of Jesus is working with our own. This has been
the amazement of my life! And my greatest pleasure. His endless source of wisdom - feeding into my mind and heart and backed by His Word's - it secures my thoughts and straightens my flesh actions into beautiful things for Him and His purpose.
Fathers cannot be replaced.
The time is coming when the father of my first born will need to help transition my son into adulthood. Stephen and I do not have the skills, nor opportunity to do this best. His real father might - can.
As much as I am filled with all sorts of emotions over this, I know that God will guide and will turn this situation into something very healthy and powerful for His glory if we let Him. This could be such an amazing story and testimony of grace and Spirit
at work over-ruling the flesh. I have had such a turn around over the last 2 months regarding this impending transition of having my oldest get ready to leave home - and meet his dad for the first time.
My sons new connection with his biological father
will be important, and done well with slow patience and plenty of space and minimal discussion on the past could be healing for everyone. God, I believe this is what you want. A story to advertise Your strength to fight our battles of the flesh and win every
time. I have decided my approach in this and it will be standing with the Maker who wins all battles, in full armour and prayer and love.
I am almost excited.
And I have an idea that might help Brad gain life experience in
his areas of talent and interest that could be very special.
Lead and guide and keep my conscience clear. I cannot do this on my own.
We all have things to contribute. We all
have made mistakes. We are also living billboards for God. If I truly believe what the Word says then with careful steps, my son might find the gap in his life filled with a third new family that I now know truly loves him. His God-given identity might shape
better within this protective and experienced surrounding, rather than within the confines of my life alone. I want him to grow even more. I am no longer afraid. He loves God too much for me to doubt God would not have his back. Shine Brad! I pray we will
all shine. Weep, and shine even more for the glinting tears!
God, lead this and guide the future. Help me to not step ahead without you. There are too many people who need to keep their honour here. Let this time be of huge building up and smothered
in grace. Do your work. Hold our hearts and steady us all.