My father died nearly 5 weeks ago. It was a tough time and a precious and privileged time. I miss him so much.
My dad taught me to love and know God. He taught me to hunger for answers and learn apologetics. My father showed his five children
how much he loved us in so many ways. He was very expressive and proud of us, yet firm and proud and frustrating too. He was just wonderful!
And being his baby, I know he delighted in me.
I feel like God has set this time up for new changes.
God felt so very close over the time dad died and afterwards. I felt honored by Him that it was my shift when dad passed away, and I had all that time alone with him to pray and sing and read scriptures. It was a gift I will cherish forever.
Now,
we have been told the land we were looking at - 2 years later - will come on the market just before Christmas or just after. And my husband and I have fasted and prayed for direction as to whether we step forward to try to buy it to build the Pilgrim's Progress
park and apologetics centre, or not.
Our answer came after I gifted the choice entirely into my husbands hands and enjoyed the peace. My husband has chosen to step forward by putting our home on the market, with the hope of a certain price, and
asking God for it to sell before we put an offer on the 100 acres in town. And I am asking for a Christian to buy our home or it to be able to be turned into a retreat somehow. Houses like ours at the top end of the market can take years to sell.
So we have poured water on the whole sacrifice in trust that now if God wants us to have the land and build then only he can do it - only he can light the fire and then we will now for sure! Or he can guide our thinking in other directions for his glory.
It is exciting, yet we naturally have the emotions of thinking we might loose our home with all our memories, and we might do so and still miss out on the land. So this is a stepping out of the boat, fixing our eyes on Jesus, and knowing somehow that he
is more than capable of holding us up to do the miraculous so our lives in whatever manner he has planned can showcase him to our struggling town and tourists.
People need purpose and a reason for life! Jesus is the answer. We will wait and see.